Title: If I Disappear
Author: Eliza Jane Brazier
Genre: Thriller, Contemporary
Source: Publisher via NetGalley
Release Date: January 26, 2021
When her favorite true crime podcast host goes missing, an adrift young woman plunges headfirst into the wild backcountry of Northern California and her own dangerous obsession.
Sera loves true crime podcasts. They make her feel empowered in a world where women just like her disappear daily. She’s sure they are preparing her for something. So when Rachel, her favorite podcast host, goes missing, Sera knows it’s time to act. Rachel has always taught her to trust her instincts.
Sera follows the clues hidden in the episodes to an isolated ranch outside Rachel’s small hometown to begin her search. She’s convinced her investigation will make Rachel so proud. But the more Sera digs into this unfamiliar world, the more off things start to feel. Because Rachel is not the first woman to vanish from the ranch, and she won’t be the last…
Rachel did try to warn her.
Sera is obsessed with a true crime podcast. When the host of the podcast, Rachel, goes missing, Sera goes to the ranch where Rachel lives to find her. Once she arrives at the ranch, she discovers that nothing is what she imagined. The town is deserted and everyone she meets tries to get her to leave. Sera has to use the clues from Rachel’s podcast to find out what happened to her.
This story is written in a second-person point of view. Sera is the narrator, and she’s speaking directly to Rachel, who she refers to as “you.” This made it very creepy, because she was speaking to the reader as if you are the one who went missing.
There were many chilling scenes in this story. Some were quite graphic. There were a lot of twists that I didn’t see coming. I found the ending complicated and confusing to follow which unfortunately made it less suspenseful at the end.
I did enjoy the journey of Sera’s search for Rachel, but I wish it had a more impactful ending.
Thank you Berkley for providing a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
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Have you read If I Disappear? What did you think of it?